extraordinary world
May. 31st, 2006 02:41 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
dumblemopI'm alright. Sure, I love you, but that's not against the rules, and I enjoy it. I don't have to be "in" love with you, and I don't think I need you like that anymore. And god, doesn't being polyamorous mean love and trust and companionship and enjoyment of life without having to be constantly worried and guilty? I don't have to be in a romantic relationship with you to love you and contribute to your life and enjoy your company and have all that be okay.
And I really do love my life, because it was just an innocent conversation about something totally different with Kristi that made me understand this.
Plus a couple of songs.
Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.
Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same.
Oh, don't you hesitate.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo.
Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?
girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Just more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer.
Do what you want to.
girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down. x2
Oh, You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Yes I know it's a drag it's doggone shame
I danced the same dance felt the same pain
I heard the same things and I done the same things as you
You best believe me it's true I worn the same shoes
I walked the same walk at least a time or two
And I heard the same things done the same things as you
In this time, time that we live in
it's easy to give in, but it won't do no good
Give it time, things will get better
A change in the weather it just might pull you through
Ya Best believe me it's true It ain't just a line
I lost some good things I had some hard times
I read the same signs and ran the same lines as you
These holes in the soles of these worn out shoes
Walked a million miles I sang some blues
I don't need no other blues I done paid my dues just like you
In this time, time that we live in
it's easy to give in, but it won't do no good
Give it time, things will get better
A change in the weather it just might do you good
You best believe me it's true I worn the same shoes
I walked the same walk at least a time or two
And I heard the same things and I done the same things as you
Yes I know it's a drag it's a doggone shame
I walked the same walk felt the same pain
I heard the same things and I done the same things as you
In this time, time that we live in
it's easy to give in, but it won't do no good
Give it time, things will get better
A change in the weather it just might do you good
It's like the music. I love music, god, it fills me up and lifts me up and changes my life. I'm flying in my head even if my feet can't keep themselves straight. Music doesn't hurt me. Music can't hurt me because I love music, because it's always with me and inside me. Music makes me cry sometimes, but music heals.
And sure, life sucks sometimes. I loved being with you and Kaitlyn. I'm not anymore. But screw weirdness. I keep saying life is only as complicated as you make it, it's time I start living it.
I don't need anything back. What matters is what I can give, because that is mine. My life is my life, my actions are my actions, my thoughts are my thoughts because they're mine. And I have a lot to give. And somehow, what I have to give will get where it's needed. Love doesn't have to hurt. There's my wings. That's my strength.
Thank you.
That may not have made a whole lot of sense in words, but it makes sense in feelings. It all came together about ten minutes ago. Seriously, all of it. I'm good. I still need a haircut, but I'm good. :P And now it's time for bed.
And I really do love my life, because it was just an innocent conversation about something totally different with Kristi that made me understand this.
Plus a couple of songs.
Three little birds, sat on my window.
And they told me I don't need to worry.
Summer came like cinnamon
So sweet,
Little girls double-dutch on the concrete.
Maybe sometimes, we got it wrong, but it's alright
The more things seem to change, the more they stay the same.
Oh, don't you hesitate.
Girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Blue as the sky, sombre and lonely,
Sipping tea in the bar by the road side,
(just relax, just relax)
Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo.
Maybe sometimes, we feel afraid, but it's alright
The more you stay the same, the more they seem to change.
Don't you think it's strange?
girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down.
You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Just more than I could take, pity for pity's sake
Some nights kept me awake, I thought that I was stronger
When you gonna realise, that you don't even have to try any longer.
Do what you want to.
girl, put your records on, tell me your favourite song
You go ahead, let your hair down
Sapphire and faded jeans, I hope you get your dreams,
Just go ahead, let your hair down. x2
Oh, You're gonna find yourself somewhere, somehow.
Yes I know it's a drag it's doggone shame
I danced the same dance felt the same pain
I heard the same things and I done the same things as you
You best believe me it's true I worn the same shoes
I walked the same walk at least a time or two
And I heard the same things done the same things as you
In this time, time that we live in
it's easy to give in, but it won't do no good
Give it time, things will get better
A change in the weather it just might pull you through
Ya Best believe me it's true It ain't just a line
I lost some good things I had some hard times
I read the same signs and ran the same lines as you
These holes in the soles of these worn out shoes
Walked a million miles I sang some blues
I don't need no other blues I done paid my dues just like you
In this time, time that we live in
it's easy to give in, but it won't do no good
Give it time, things will get better
A change in the weather it just might do you good
You best believe me it's true I worn the same shoes
I walked the same walk at least a time or two
And I heard the same things and I done the same things as you
Yes I know it's a drag it's a doggone shame
I walked the same walk felt the same pain
I heard the same things and I done the same things as you
In this time, time that we live in
it's easy to give in, but it won't do no good
Give it time, things will get better
A change in the weather it just might do you good
It's like the music. I love music, god, it fills me up and lifts me up and changes my life. I'm flying in my head even if my feet can't keep themselves straight. Music doesn't hurt me. Music can't hurt me because I love music, because it's always with me and inside me. Music makes me cry sometimes, but music heals.
And sure, life sucks sometimes. I loved being with you and Kaitlyn. I'm not anymore. But screw weirdness. I keep saying life is only as complicated as you make it, it's time I start living it.
I don't need anything back. What matters is what I can give, because that is mine. My life is my life, my actions are my actions, my thoughts are my thoughts because they're mine. And I have a lot to give. And somehow, what I have to give will get where it's needed. Love doesn't have to hurt. There's my wings. That's my strength.
Thank you.
That may not have made a whole lot of sense in words, but it makes sense in feelings. It all came together about ten minutes ago. Seriously, all of it. I'm good. I still need a haircut, but I'm good. :P And now it's time for bed.
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Date: 2006-05-31 02:04 pm (UTC)Told you the "Put Your Records On" song was cuuuuuuute and awesome and pretty. :D
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Date: 2006-05-31 05:43 pm (UTC)But the song is awesome so I forgive you. :D
P.S. participation
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Date: 2006-05-31 07:40 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-05-31 08:54 pm (UTC)