Don't Want to Say Goodnight

Because Nikol asked, and my favorites don't fit in 129 characters. Pick and choose as your need suits you!

Good

( Richard Shindell, 'Are You Happy Now?' )

Dave Matthews, "Gravedigger"
Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Can you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain

Most of Tom Lehrer ever.

( Ani Difranco, 'Little Plastic Castle' )

April March, "Chick Habit"
oh, how your bubble's gonna burst
when you meet another nurse
she'll be driving in a hearse

( Belle and Sebastian, 'I Don't Love Anyone' )

Belle and Sebastian, "If You're Feeling Sinister"
But if you are feeling sinister
Go off and see a minister
Chances are you'll probably feel better
If you stayed and played with yourself

Emerald Rose, "Goth Baby"
Now I've got one heart beating
Two holes in my neck
And for three nights running
I've been a nervous wreck
Won't you come and get me honey
For all eternity
You know I've got to love you
You made a vampire out of me

Carly Simon, "You're So Vain"
You're so vain
You probably think this song is about you
Don't you?
Don't you?

Citizen Cope, "Pablo Picasso"
Helicopters and cameras all shottin' for the station
They say that a wild man defending his lady
But for some odd reason they keep calling you a painting

Dar Williams, "As Cool As I Am"
You look out of the kitchen window and you shake your head and say low,
’if I could believe that stuff, I’d say that woman has a halo,’
And I look out and say, ’yeah, she’s really blond,’

( The Dresden Dolls, 'The Jeep Song' )

The Dresden Dolls, "Perfect Fit"
i used to be the tight one
the perfect fit
funny how those compliments can
make you feel so full of it

Bad

I love them, but They Might Be Giants has some really bad lyrics. "I turned off my hearing aid," "What's that blue thing doing there," "Please pass the milk please," "Mysterious whisper," etc.

I'm trying to think of something that's not completely obvious--I can't even listen to a lot of modern popular music because they lyrics are so inane.

I also love Ben Folds, and I enjoy "Song for the Dumped," but I can't honestly say the lyrics are good.
Give me my money back
I want my money back
Give me my money back, you bitch
And don't forget to give me back my black T-shirt

Then there's Neutral Milk Hotel. Love them--but their lyrics make no sense. They sound great, but if you just look at the words your brain wants to run away and hide. Example from ( 'Two Headed Boy.' )

As I understand it, the lyrics of Pearl Jam's "Yellow Ledbetter" aren't the point of the song--which is good, because I really struggle to find the story in them. The song is good, but the lyrics appear to be ( gibberish )

...as opposed to the afternoon:

I already have a list of six possible songs for the drag show next year, with notes on costumes and scenes playing in my head.

I miss singing. I know I don't have time for it this year but maybe I should give up on the Mama's Boys and find another group. I've seen more of them wandering around than there used to be.

I just see novawolf's away message is "probably singing" and epilo's always got keys going on...and I listen to my MCC CDs and the Adiloi tracks I stole from mialamu...and there's something missing.

I need more time. Or an instant cloning machine. So I could have one me eat and sleep and another me go to class and another me to do homework and a fourth etc me do all the other things I want to do. That way I could take all the classes I want to, get all my homework done, get sleep and nourishment, and see Trin and sing and play frisbee and do Freedom and swim and draw and do theatre and everything else I don't have time for. I wish I had taken more advantage of high school when I had so much opportunity and time.

Anyone have a cardboard box they're not using...?

My brother picked up some new music without me realizing it. Which makes sense, given that my iPod is the family room desktop pre-camp, and his music is now all on his laptop. But I managed to transfer some of it to my computer before we left, and there's a whole CD from something called Azure Ray--and it's really good. So check them out.

I also got a bunch of new music. Because I had $16-some left from last year, so I got:
-a Carmina Burana CD because that was one of the coolest singing experiences I've ever had;
-"Rhapsody in Blue" because I love it but for some reason don't have it;
-"Breath (2AM)" by Anna Nalick because I heard it a couple of times over the summer and thus associate it with camp and Jade and I had a moment singing it in the van that last weekend sometime;
-"Breath" by Melissa Etheridge because the previous song made me think of it and I'd heard it on Liz's computer sometime last year and I really like the song;
-"Los Angeles" by SUGARCULT because it was the free download this week and they always make me think of Elli;
-"Sonido Total" by The Pinker Tones because I saw it on LOGO;
-"Lolita" by Elefant because I saw it on LOGO.

Then I loaded the iTunes card that I got from my Secret Buddy AKA Trin and so far I have obtained:
-the video of "Is It Any Wonder?" by Keane because I saw it on LOGO and liked the video too enough to not just get the song;
-the video of "Unwritten" by Natasha Bedingfield because I saw it on LOGO and like the song much better with the video--it also reminds me of camp;
-"Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels)" by Arcade Fire because I saw it on LOGO;
-"Rooftops (A Liberation Broadcast)" by Lostprophets because I saw it on LOGO;
-"Cash Machine" by Hard-FI because I saw it on LOGO.

Good stuff. I'm making my way through Tess--although, technically, not, because I'm updating Livejournal instead, silly me.

I took The Purity Test again because Trin was taking it and then Jade was confused so I linked her and she was taking it, and I got a 72.60 this time. Last time I got a 74.45. So, *cough*, apparently, between Before Camp and After Camp I went down 1.85 points, which translates to 37 new 'yes'es. And I believe the time I took it before that was definitely pre-Pride and judging by the score (which I apparently remember as a 79.something) also pre-Liz&Kaitlyn--wow, that's a hundred new 'yes'es between Lindsay and Pride. Can that be right?

Wanna see something fun? Go here and search for "Migel"--the one without a period after it and the 2002 date is the first time I took it. xD So I guess I had a 92.30 the first time.

I'm also amused by the fact that I was able to check off all but about 7 boxes on the female section.

There was something else I was going to say that I vaguely suspect was related to the Test or at least the Test made me think of it but now I'm not sure what it was.

I got an Ultimate magazine in the mail today. I have no idea why.

I need to go to the bookstore. Really, I don't need to, I just want to poke around. Maybe I should do some work instead. Yeah, I think that's the right answer.

The new Facebook is...disturbing. But already I'm getting used to knowing what new groups my friends have joined and who's now friends with whom without having to put any work into it. It's nice coding, but just no.

I added a million pictures from high school to iPhoto. Guess who most of them are of. But it's getting easier--I think I'm really getting over some things. And I found my Baba O'Reilly dating video! Totally worth it. I'm so psyched I still have that.

Anyway, signing off for the night. Later kids.

I had an interesting weekend.

Friday I was supposed to be on the Towson bus because that was how I'd gotten back to camp on Sunday--but it left without me.

Token got in a car crash--she's fine, but the van was totalled and the other party(ies) had to be helicoptered out.

One kid didn't get picked up until 9pm, so Jade and I hung out with her for awhile and watched Labyrinth. Best movie ever. Jade didn't even know who David Bowie was. It was disappointing.

Then those of us going left for Trinity/Mad River's house so they could shower and change. We didn't get to the bar until like, midnight-fifteen and stayed until two. I, of course, sat/stood around and watched, but it was still fun. I met some of Trin's friends.

There was fighting on the way back to the house. We were supposed to go to breakfast with some of Trin's friends but we didn't. So I watched some of St. Elmo's Fire with Trin and then we went upstairs to have breakfast at 4am. (Bacon...... :D) Then we all went to sleep.

Saturday I didn't wake up unti about 2pm. Then we went to Artscape. That was pretty cool. We walked around the little booths for awhile--there was one filled with books (random sci-fi books for 50 cents!) that I was eying but you know how I hate holding up the group, so I didn't stop and when we went back later it had closed up because of the rain.

We saw the Baltimore Symphony Orchestra play and it was fucking AMAZING. First they did this industrial waltz thing that was so cool. And then they played a piece that one of the musicians had written, which he played his part on some kind of synth woodwind that was awesome. Then there was an Ireland/Appalacia/Texas fiddle tune medley, and then she played a piece on an ELECTRIC VIOLIN. I saw her playing with it before the conductor introduced the next piece and I was all "*gasp* OMG is that what I think it is??" and it WAS. And then the bassoon section came back in for the last piece dressed as Hell's Angels, because that was what the piece had been inspired by. It was so fucking cool.

Then we had food at XS. I was lusting after Mad River's avocado maki but I didn't ask for one--but we shared the edamame. It was a pretty cool place. I had breakfast food. Our waitress was cute. She had a violin or a cello or something tattooed on her spine, and stars tattooed just inside her shoulders--like, underneath her collarbone, but out to the sides? Just inside the straps of her top.

Then we went back and watched a band play. It sounded like it was called G-lah or G-love or something--I wasn't too clear. Trin tried to get me to dance. Yeah no. But it was fun.

I've discovered something about the things I can and can't do though. I can't dance with anyone I'm not dominant to. Like I'm not dominant to Liz or Jo or Chole or anyone in that group, so I wasn't doing too well at Pride. And I'm not dominant to Mad River or Trinity or Captain Planet, so dancing on Friday or Saturday was not happenining, not to mention that Trin's friends are intimidating, Mad River makes me nervous, and I kind of have to keep my eyes off of Trin when she's dancing or I'll just stare. I could "dance" at the luau the other week and at the Pax Tu party this week because I'm dominant to the kids, and I act like a freak around Piper all the time because I'm equal or dominant to her too. Not that I've tested it, but I could probably dance with Jade because I'm dominant to her--I have to be so she doesn't suck me under. It's an interesting theory.

Then we went back to their house and we watched American Splendor. I hadn't heard of it before but the movie was horrible and hilarious, with a mix of actors, drawings, and the real people. Then Mad River and Captain Planet went back upstairs and Trin and I watched most of Tomb Raider--except I wasn't paying much attention to the movie after the first five minutes because Trin decided to give me a backrub. Then I was falling asleep so we went to bed.

In the morning we left late. And then we had to go pick up Angelfish because he said something to piss off the girl who was giving him a ride and she left him on the side of the road.

So, now I'm back at camp and the weekend's over. I'm with Red Bull and the ITs again this week, so that shouldn't be too bad. Especially since they'll be placed with units most of the time or up at the barn, so I'll get to float around to other units and fill in where I'm needed, like Thursday.

Thursday the ITs spent the whole day in CPR training so Red Bull and I helped in the office and with coverage for the other units. Thursday was interesting. Thursday was Halloween--Jade decided that we were going to be Morticia and Gomez Adams. So since I didn't have any other options I agreed. It was pretty fun. Then we had a midnight swim with the Mermaids and the hiking group. I got a shower afterwards. So I didn't really have a break, but I did.

Jade was upset. I'd basically just finished lecturing her about not taking a proper break, when I turn around and don't have a break after she has her two hours. Yeah. You know you're pretty far gone when your rationale for not taking a break is "If she goes to bed even fifteen minutes earlier it'll be worth it."

Yeah. I'm crazy. I'm sorry, I just can't help being attracted to the do-it-all free-spirit types. And Jesus does Trin ever remind me of Liz. I made Liz buttons last Sunday, "Tell me a story," "Thoughts: GO!" and "All because the ladies love the Liz," and Trin takes my discarded Thoughts: GO! (it was off-center) and pins it to her backpack. And then Friday while we were waiting around for Mad River to figure out what to wear, she comes out with "So, tell me a story." I claim not to have a type--and while I don't have specific preferences for the average girl I think is hot, I apparently have a certain kind that pushes my buttons when I'm actually interested in someone.

I had a nightmare about Lindsay Friday night. It was awful.

But yeah, minus the fighting and the the nightmare, it was a great weekend.

This is where I shake my head, wink, giggle, and don't reveal the parts I've left out. ;-)

Tagged by piper_lee:

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

1. Virginia, Tori Amos.
I listen to this first every night before I go to bed and at other times through the day.

2. Haunted, Poe.
I listen to this one a lot. This is usually the one I choose to start a listening session with lately.

3. Possession, Sarah McLachlan.
I listened to this one for almost a full day on Beltane. I wanted to do it karaoke at the drag show but we ran out of time.

4. Northern Cross, Cry Cry Cry.
I sing this to myself all the time. I need to find two people to sing it with me at some point, because I'd really like to be able to create the harmonies because it's beautiful.

5. Get Low, Lil John and East Side Boyz.
I play this when I'm cleaning my room. My dad thinks it's funny. My mom hates it and makes me turn it off.

6. Stash, Phish. (live)
I'm still working on that monologue I was talking about. It has to do with this song. I listen to it a lot.

7. What Teachers Make, Taylor Mali.
I keep obsessing about Taylor Mali and I bet not one of you has heard him. Here you go.

I tag:
novawolf
fenix_artist
vulpine_frenzy
mewmewmew_
zealous_seeker
nekobasu
johanna17

According to brightorchid and piper_lee, the downloads are available for 7 days or 100 downloads. And there's no way there will be 100 downloads. You don't have to upload your own songs if you don't want to, or do this at all; I'm just curious. Have fun.

(I want to add Leva's Polka, Leva's Polka Remix, and Jake Shimabukuro for fun.)

Links of the day, because this is the coolest thing EVER:

Okay, so Pipe sends me LeekSpin, and we are both IN LOVE with the song. So we start trying to see if we can split the audio from the flash animation and keep the song, but apparently, that doesn't really work.

So after many appeals and webcrawling, we find mp3s of the song and videos of live performances of it.
Loituma Live on youtube
Ievan Polkka.mp3

I need to sing this. Someone teach me Finnish and find me three other people to sing with. Do it.

Liz sent me a link to some song lyrics just now, and I just noticed that the title of the page is in the font "Dauphin."

I used to write exclusively in Dauphin. I just had a little middle school nostalgia moment and thought I'd share.

Too bad I deleted all of that because ""robin"" wrote it.

Feh.

We were listening to Dar Williams in the car near the end of the trip and the second song on the CD is "I'll Miss You til I Meet You." I used to listen to that song every night after she stopped talking to me. I turned it into a sort of prayer that she would find the men she was looking for and forget about me. Then I stopped listening to it for a long time. It was a little bit of a shock to hear it again. The song is exactly how she used to talk about Allen. She's been there for a year; I wonder if anyone's shown up yet.

My dad played me "(Men Succeed Where Women Are) Sluts" (by Jeanne Marie Spicuzza I discover with Google) today while we were packing up. My dad surprises me sometimes. It's a great piece. I need to find more slam people.

I also need a new computer. My computer is trash and I am sick of packing, unpacking, and transporting the damn thing every year. My whole family's going Mac. At the end of winter break, I was going to get a Powerbook, a very large monitor, and a tablet. I didn't. Now my brother has a Macbook, which I haven't really looked at. It's better, but it's more expensive, so if I got the Macbook I would probably not get the monitor. I need to decide whether it's worth it and just get something already.

The house is in shambles. It doesn't really aussage my feeling of unreality. I'll need to get up relatively early (not so early in terms of school, wayyy early in terms of home) because there will be people painting the upstairs hallway and they'll need to paint the jamb of my door, and I'm not quite the exhibitionist that I really need random painters coming in on me naked. Although I didn't really have any problems when Lauren and Julie and then Chris were looking at those pictures. I'm not even sure what pictures those are...that might have had something to do with it.

I mean, hey. I'd never seen Julie before in my life, will probably never see her again, I definitely won't see Lauren again anytime soon, and Chris would probably have seen me naked eventually.

I think if Friday night hadn't gotten all unhappy there I might have had something to drink then. I was definitely toying with the idea. I'm not sure if I'm relieved or disappointed.

Shadow's asleep under the desk next to me. My poor baby.

It's funny, I'll write to no end if there's no one forcing me to do it. She used to be horribly disappointed and angry if I didn't write when I wasn't here to talk to her, but she would usually get horribly disappointed and angry with what I wrote anyway. I think it was her way of making sure that I wasn't having fun without her even by accident more than anything. I look back on some of the things I wrote and I can hardly see me in those pages. She twisted me into the scared little girl she despised.

Well...screw you.

I don't know. I guess I identify with Stephen a little bit. Kindred spirits, in a sense. Stephen's fallen in love with a straight girl, who also happens to be a bitch, but Stephen loves her just the same and won't give her any blame for this fucked-up relationship. Yeah.

Although I kind of resent the way Stephen is always being characterized, as some "queer" "creature" that isn't quite right, somehow "grotesque" even in her beauty, but somehow beautiful even in her not-right-ness, like the ugly puppy that captures your heart. And characterized this way by the author, not just in the point of view of the "normal" characters that surround her. It bothers me intensely sometimes, but I'm not really sure why.

I wish I would write things down with more consistency. I thought of some nice phrases in the car and maybe even had bits of a poem-song going but I didn't write them down and I've probably lost them.

Still can't get you out of my head--not that I'm really trying--and I miss you.

I believe I'm rambling. I should probably desist. I'm sure I'll just start another entry later.

Some music musings because I don't want to work:

Sleater-Kinney. Saw the music video for "Jumpers" on LOGO, thought it kicked ass. The video is definitely worth it, and the song is great. The rest of the album...I don't like it quite so much. "Jumpers" has a nice contrast of melody, beat, angry guitars, and a little bit of angry shouting. The rest of the album is pretty much angry shouting. If you like girls who can play the drums and guitar pretty damn well but do a lot of angry shouting, get The Woods. If you're not so much about the angry shouting, get "Jumpers."

The Like. Saw the music video for "What I Say and What I Mean" on LOGO, thought it kicked ass. I was a little bit cautious about checking their album out after my run-in with S-K, but I like the whole thing. Can't find out anything about the band because their website is way trippy...but they is pretty...and can they ever play. I told Alex that I liked The Like and described them as "three women on guitar and drums..and keyboard I think? pretty music and pretty musicians. :)" and he implied that I liked them only because they're pretty. It's not true!

That's it for now because I have to go eat food at the picnic!

And hey: me, the drag show, Mandy Goes to Med School...what do you think? It'll require whiteface, a man's hat and coat, and a skirt, of the things that I don't have. It'll totally break character for me but I think I can find it in me.

There was something I opened up this window to say, but now I don't remember what it was.

I left the breakfast for dinner thing so I could take a nap and start homework, even though we were watching Murderball and it was really neat...but now after sitting here and eating my cookies left over from lunch that I forgot about I feel more alert, so I should do homework until I really fall asleep instead of goofing off.

I was so damned productive yesterday. And it felt good. So I'm going to keep doing that.

Why do I always waste opportunities?

But I can do this. I only had a real problem with needing to see you...twice, I think. I think I would remember if it had been many more times than that, because it had a particular sick feeling. And you know, I like to be useful. I wouldn't have wanted to see you carry all that to your car alone.

I've translated/prettified your sentences:

She's known the love of her life since the day she was born. She lives one day at a time but she's got the whole week ahead of her. All because the ladies (and gentlemen) love the Liz.

Now I ask you in return: what are mine, obviously, since you mention it, of course; and if your life were a haiku, what would it be? :P

And now I'm going to do work like a good boi.

Fuck, I have class tomorrow night again. Two presentations only, so I should get out relatively early? If we introduce the new board quick while I'm on my break it'll work...

I need me a new musical. I've been singing Guys and Dolls too much lately. Remind me to practice Rent II over the summer. I may break down and just get Wicked after all, because.

I remembered the tune to the lyrics I wrote last semester during math class. It made me happy. I only have a tune for the first two lines (or four depending on how you space them) but I'd forgotten it after I came up with it because I switched to different lyrics for awhile - this was on the rock walk the other week - but I guess I repeated it enough at the time that my brain still had it lurking around somewhere. Now I have to see if I can make it work for the rest of the song.

( These are the lines )

( The other lyrics for random )

Not sure if I'll add more verses or what. And I think the third line of the last verse is supposed to start differently but I can't remember, since I basically wrote and remember this all in my head. Tune too.

Okaythat'sgreatnowwork.