I miss all of you.

[dumblemop]

As I was writing my away message for AIM so I could finally go to sleep, I was trying to figure out what day it is tomorrow (today). My first thought upon determining it was a Thursday was "Score! Freedom meeting tonight."

Then I realized.

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[zealous-seeker.livejournal.com]

::hugs:: there will always be next semester.

... I on the other hand.. dont' have a next semester. I have to change at life.. and I'm not sure I"m ready for life to change... I mean it just.. ya know.. changes... and it's difficult because all those who are normally so close... and now so far away. and it's up to me to keep those ties... or else lose them.. and am I strong enough to find others like them? *are* there others like them?

random thoughts... I really do mean to wish you well and give you hope. Soon enough you will be back in the arms of people who love you... but don't grow to hate the place you are now because you're longing to be with them... learn from it... bask in it.. find adventure and excitment everyday. And that will only make you stronger and more exciting so that when you do charge back into the arms of those you love you'll have so much to share... so much excitement to give.. a renewed energy.

Closeness is necessity... and yet distance is brilliant. Learn from it.

::hugs::

[dumblemop.livejournal.com]

I think I'm going to stop writing these entries.

I was going to go into why I was writing them but I shouldn't justify being whiny.

I'll keep that in mind.

*hugs*

[zealous-seeker.livejournal.com]

Don't stop if you're censoring yourself.. being whiny is a part of life.. it's YOUR livejournal, you can write what you want. I love you. and i want you to know that. and it's endearing to know that you miss freedom... and people need to know that you care about them.. and this entry was one way that people could know that.

Maybe I misunderstood your note.

::hugs:: I'll catch you soon sweetie.

[dumblemop.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but...I write them and then I realize that other people, specifically you, are dealing with much more complicated and difficult situations and I shouldn't be whining about what seems like nothing in comparison. And it is a way for me to say "I miss these people because they are important to my life and I'm not seeing them and won't see them for a long time," but it does sound an awful lot like whining, and part of it just is whining. So...

Bleh. Anyway. *hugs*