Argh.

[dumblemop]

Why does my family always have to bitch? Why do I always have to bitch about my family?

I don't like the person I am at home. I don't like not liking myself.

Argh.

And I can't stand it that the things my mother gets angry with me about most are the things I do that remind her of my dad.

I hate that dinner out with my family is my brother out with his friends, me reading a book and listening to music, my mom making pointed conversation with my dad about me just in case I can hear her, and my dad failing to choose his words carefully enough to keep my mom from blowing up at him.

And it is so terribly apt that if you look back through this entire LJ, there is not a single entry where I really, truly complain about my parents, and suddenly in the three days I've been back there are how many?

Bleh. Maybe we'll all feel better in the morning.

Comments

[ex-sweetadel800.livejournal.com]

I've come to the conclusion that the time has arrived to fly the bloody coop.

[johanna17.livejournal.com]

hey, this probably doesn't help, but i kind of have the same feelings about my own house...

my parents just BITCH at each other a lot... and i think they are used to it (and I know I was at some point) but now it just sounds HARSH and PETTY... and it's mostly my mom bitching. My brother does whatever he wants and they yell and he ignores them, and my sister tries to stay out of the line of fire.

and I get meaner when I'm here, and LOUDER, and bitchier. and sometimes like i'm crazy... so if you ever feel like you are crazy, you (probably :-P) are not.

okay, that's enough preachy/girly/sharing my life because it's therapeutic but will probably do nothing for you crap :)

LOOOOOOOOOOOVE, Jo

[zealous-seeker.livejournal.com]

families are odd... hang in there. you'll find your place in yours.. you're still growing. always grow. never stop growing.. and always leave room for growth.
you're family is a relationship just like any other.. you put so much heart and love and loyality and commitment into your relationships.... I find it strange that you don't with your family. I wonder who these people in your household are. i wish I would have met your father.

[dumblemop.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I don't...I have bad habits where my family is concerned. That is one thing I do need to examine and just...get over already. I turn into a horrible person around my family sometimes and I hate it. I wish you had too.