dumblemop | The Drag Show

I'm exhausted and I don't know what I was thinking. And I can't believe I actually came up with this crazy idea several days before the event. The adrenaline is wearing off and I'm going "there are pictures of me out there being fucking insane, what was I thinking" so I think I'm going to go to bed now and hopefully I'll be over all of it by the morning. Jesus Christ.

And I don't know what I was thinking, but it was weird to take everything off and go back to being Rob again. Like it was fucking weird but I got into it, you know? Which is why I didn't run off and change as soon as the lights came up, and I think the only thing that really stopped me from leaving it on to go out afterwards was the damn shoes. (Remind me to return Ulrich's hat.) Still, anyone who didn't come tonight, you missed out, because I don't know if I'll ever be doing that again.

Also at least Lauren seems to know enough about the genderqueer thing to explain it to her boyfriend. I wasn't expecting that. I guess since Alison just rolled right over Liz using male pronouns for me the next-to-last time she was here and even translated the sentence to explain away the 'him,' I just kind of assumed all my roommates were ignoring it.

I'm also conspicuously (and not-so-conspicuously) missing a lot of hair. It's just been a strange two weeks.

I don't know. It's almost two so it's definitely time for bed.

I'm sorry but it's true
I'm still in love with you
And I don't know what to do
about this feelin' runnin' thru me
And it would be so easy
just to take you in my arms
But our one and two
don't add up to three no more

Yeah. The truth, in bad grammar.