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Yes, so I am being slightly contemplative, but I have half an hour to kill while my retainers soak.

It's a little funny because we really are back at that stage in a way, but with half a million doors closed this time. I do miss you. I don't need 'sweet princes' and charged sign language...but I miss that. It's working somehow, because you're moving out of the "I'm in love with you" space and more into the space that Tiff and Pipe and Ulrich have, but still in your own space of Liz. Because you are that important to me, just...with a different flavor now.

And I am a little bit going crazy because I haven't heard anything from Kaitlyn. It's getting under my skin. And I know she's at home she turned her computer in and you're her first priority and she has this distance thing and it's only Thursday, but nothing? I can't deal with nothing. "Hey, this isn't working, it's over" is hard enough, "hey, this isn't working, it's over, goodbye forever" I cannot handle.

I felt bad for having to tell Tiff no tonight. But at the same time, now I know that I can say 'no' when I need to. I've never had to say it before so I never really knew if I could. But I needed to, and I did, and as sorry as I was to have to do it, it still felt good in a way.

Anyway, my retainers are done, so I'm going to get some sleep so I can get a shower before Physics. My mom's coming tomorrow--she'll ask about plans. You know, I was about to ask what I could tell her and then I realized, I don't have to, because this is in my life too. That is a truly bizarre feeling. That's not a pattern that has any relevance to my life anymore, because my life is mine. It's these fucking pictures. I need to turn them off.

help me. :D

Okay, time for another poll:

I have $16.57 left in my iTunes account. That's enough for one full CD and a couple of free-standing songs, right?

So what should I get?
-Wicked soundrack (because)
-something from The Decemberists (because I have nothing and they're awesome)
-(not Sixpence None the Richer because iTunes doesn't have them)
-Really Rosie, Carole King (because I can't believe iTunes actually has this)
-something from Belle and Sebastian (because they're awesome and I don't have much)
-How to Save a Life, The Fray (because I just discovered them by accident and they're awesome)
-something from Boy Hits Car (because I came across them and they're not bad...kind of a cross between Incubus and somebody heavier)
-write-in suggestion (other)

lalala...

Some music musings because I don't want to work:

Sleater-Kinney. Saw the music video for "Jumpers" on LOGO, thought it kicked ass. The video is definitely worth it, and the song is great. The rest of the album...I don't like it quite so much. "Jumpers" has a nice contrast of melody, beat, angry guitars, and a little bit of angry shouting. The rest of the album is pretty much angry shouting. If you like girls who can play the drums and guitar pretty damn well but do a lot of angry shouting, get The Woods. If you're not so much about the angry shouting, get "Jumpers."

The Like. Saw the music video for "What I Say and What I Mean" on LOGO, thought it kicked ass. I was a little bit cautious about checking their album out after my run-in with S-K, but I like the whole thing. Can't find out anything about the band because their website is way trippy...but they is pretty...and can they ever play. I told Alex that I liked The Like and described them as "three women on guitar and drums..and keyboard I think? pretty music and pretty musicians. :)" and he implied that I liked them only because they're pretty. It's not true!

That's it for now because I have to go eat food at the picnic!

And hey: me, the drag show, Mandy Goes to Med School...what do you think? It'll require whiteface, a man's hat and coat, and a skirt, of the things that I don't have. It'll totally break character for me but I think I can find it in me.

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So apparently I can't mail these things until Monday because the mail counter closes for the weekend at 4 on Friday.

Fuck.

Also, I ate three plates of food at the CWIT picnic. It wasn't a cookout as I had thought, but tables full of KFC, salads, and dessert. I had mashed potatoes, chicken, and macaroni and cheese for the first plate, chips and fruit salad for the second plate, and two brownies, two chocolate chip cookies, one ginger cookie, and a CWIT cupcake for the third plate.

I have no idea how I can eat so much, but I do.

I used to say "pretty good, you?" when people asked how I was. When I was having a bad day, I said "okay." Then, for awhile, I said "actually, great. :D" Now I'm back to "pretty good."

Reminder to self: write the poem you thought of at the picnic table.

The sky is beautiful today.

Maybe I'll go see a movie tomorrow. There are ones I've been wanting to see. I doubt V's in theaters anymore, which is a shame.

-Akeelah and the Bee (Maybe. Looks cute and has Laurence Fishbourne. Theater worth it?)
-Art School Confidential (Maybe. I do like John Malkovich and it looks okay.)
-Ice Age 2 (Still want to see this. First one was hilarious. Theater worth it?)
-Mission Impossible III (I never did finish the second one. Theater worth it for the stunts.)
-Stick It (I think this looks hilarious.)

I missed Take the Lead, which is odd because Ice Age came out before it. I'll rent it...um...sometime. I keep forgetting I'll have no connections this summer. Looks like I'll probably see Stick It because I don't have any burning desire to see the others...although Ice Age 2 comes in a close second, so we'll see.

Maybe I'll get Matt to go with me. *eyeroll*

Pipe, we still need to watch Velvet Goldmine. Monday afternoon? We're running out of time here.

I think I'm going to take a shower and then start programming because if I don't get a substantial amount done tonight before someone distracts me (please?) I'll never be able to justify seeing a movie and I need to go do something. Although I should probably check if I have any money before I start making movie plans.

Since you mention it...

So some of us went to Uno's last night.

A topic that came up was "favorite sexual positions."

I dissembled and didn't answer because I don't really think about it a lot, so I didn't have a ready response.

I've thought about it.

And I've decided...( People, like probably Pipe, who don't really want to know this, should just skip the cut. Seriously. Pipe will probably read it anyway just to spite me. )

And that was my bit of bravery and WAY-T-FUCKING-M-I for the day.