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Well, the decision about 24-hour Plays is out of my hands...or not?

Holy fuck. I was about to say that I wouldn't be able to do 24-hour Plays because I had a math exam from 6-8 on the 20th, when 24s goes from the 19th at 8 to the 20th at 10...but I just checked the final exam schedule again and my math final is from 6-8 on the 19th. So I could do it.

Also. Something Johanna commented made me think: would I be so worked up about it if I were doing it because Ulrich or Tiff or Sara had brought my attention to it or were also doing it? Of course not. So why am I worked up about it because Liz brought my attention to it and is really excited about it? Because I'm in a relationship, and I have this terrible fear of invading her space, being too clingy, of only being in the way when she needs to get things done, when she needs to shine. I don't want to create eddies where there should be smooth sailing. If Liz had not been graduating and had decided to be on the Freedom board again, I wouldn't have run; shouldn't I also give her that space in her chosen field?

Well. Vanessa needs actors and techies. I have no tech experience and I just decided I'm not an actor. I'm going to email her anyway and say "Hey, I want to do this."

Just realized I should probably cut this here 'cause it's hella longer than I realized.

( gender stuff )

And damn it. I came up with a beautiful phrase in Liz's room last night and I wanted to remember it and I've just remembered that I forgot.

( relationship stuff )

Je veux me perdre dans vous parceque je ne veux pas être seul.

I told you I was crazy. I know I'm being crazy. That and I just haven't had enough sleep this week. Why do I write huge entries when I'm in these weird moods and only post quizzes when I'm doing well?

It's 2:15. The text that was originally in this space was "it's 12:30 and I promised myself I would go to bed now fifteen minutes ago." Then I went back and wrote some more, and I've been talking to Ayush for awhile.. Good conversation. I'm glad I have such good friends, I really am. Can't wait to add cuddling to talking in the fall. :) I'm in better headspace to sleep now anyway, the talking and writing evened me out. I think it's time I wrote another poem, but the phrase that would have seeded it is floating around in Liz's room somewhere. I'll have to move on to the next one if I want to write one.

( show stuff )

Anyway. That's enough insomniacking for tonight. Love to all.

Hm.

Hello I am

active, admirer, agender, ally, androgyne, androgynous, bigender, boi, both, brother, crossdresser, either, FTX, female-bodied, feminist, fluid, freak, furry, GLBTQIA, gay, gay-friendly, geek, gender bender, gender deviant, gender fluid, gender neutral, gender pirate, gender variant, genderfuck, genderqueer, genetic girl, gentleman, human, LGBTQIA, masculine, masochist, me, mister, mixed-gendered, multigender, neither, neutral, omnigender, omnisexual, out, pansexual, polyamorous, polysnuggler, queer, same gender loving, second, sir, sister, tomboy, transgenderist, undecided, undeclared, undefined, unspecified, versatile, wannabe, XX

What's yours?

So I may have some gaydar. I could've sworn one of the role models today was not a straight woman. I wasn't with anyone with legitimate gaydar though, so I'll never know.

More later. I'm starving because no one brought the volunteers lunch. I'm finishing up the comment list response thingers; I've done Schwenk, Johanna, Lis, Ayush and Nathan, and I have Annie and Liz left.

FUN FUN LINK:
Geoffrey Chaucer Hath a Blog - the significant entry is "To Kalamazoo, wyth Love" should it fall off the main page...pick-up lines!