Lalala...

Jun. 1st, 2007 05:43 pm
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You Would Be a Pet Dog

You're friendly, loyal, and an all around good sport. People love to be near you.
You are very open with your feelings, and you're quite vocal in expressing them.
You are sincere and kind. You love many people - without any sort of agenda.

Why you would make a great pet: You're content to chill out with your friends

Why you would make a bad pet: You always find yourself getting into trouble

What you would love about being a dog: Running around and playing

What you would hate about being a dog: Being left home alone while everyone else is out having fun


Your Love is Represented by a Purple Rose

For you, love is all about chemistry and attraction. You totally believe in love at first sight.
If a relationship is right, you know it from the start.
You're often sure of your feelings. And you're not afraid to express them.


You Are a Mermaid

You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.
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I missed two. One because I honestly couldn't figure it out, and the other because I misinterpreted it.
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We are definitely not self-sufficient food-wise, I've never fired a gun, I'm not much of an endurance runner, and I would most certainly try to keep my loved ones safe.

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From [livejournal.com profile] enigmaticmagpie:



Your Score: Neutral-Good


76% Good, 48% Chaotic




Plane of Existence: Elysium, "Blessed Fields". Description: The plane of peace. Notable Inhabitants: Guardinals - noble immortal humanoids with bestial features.




Examples of Neutral-Goods (Ethically Neutral, Morally Good)




Cloud Strife (FFVII)

Boogenhagen (FFVII)

Mother Theresa

Ghandi

Sidhartha Gautama (the Buddha)

Gandalf

Bilbo & Frodo Baggins

Samwise Gamgee

Indiana Jones

The Dali Lama

Ben (O-Bi-Wan) Kenobi

Luke Skywalker

Harry Potter

Hermionie

Dumbledore




Often goes along with the laws and desires of the group as being the easiest course of action, but ethical considerations clearly have top priority. May pursue quite abstract goals. Often aloof and difficult to understand.




Will keep their word to others of good alignment

Would not attack an unarmed foe

Will not use poison

Will help those in need

May work with others

Indifferent to higher authority

Indifferent to organizations



Neutral Good "Pure Good"

"Benefactor"




A neutral good [person] will obey the law, or break it when he or she sees it will serve a greater good. He or she is not bound strongly to a social system or order. His or her need to help others and reduce their suffering may take precedence over all else. Neutral good [people] do good for goodness' sake, not because they are directed to by law or by whim.



This alignment desires good without bias for or against order.



Other Alignments and Tendencies (Tendenices are what you would more often sway towards; esp. for Neutrals):

0-39% Good, 0-39% Chaotic: Lawful-Evil

0-39% Good, 40-60% Chaotic: Neutral-Evil

0-39% Good, 61-100% Chaotic: Chaotic-Evil

40-60% Good, 0-39% Chaotic: Lawful-Neutral

40-60% Good, 40-60% Chaotic: True Neutral

40-60% Good, 61-100% Chaotic: Chaotic-Neutral

61-100% Good, 0-39% Chaotic: Lawful-Good

61-100% Good, 61-100% Chaotic: Chaotic-Good















































Link: The Alignment Test written by xan81 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

Color Quiz

Apr. 22nd, 2007 11:02 am
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It's getting passed around the HoN LJs. :P

you are lightcyan
#E0FFFF

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.

Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working.

Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.
the spacefem.com html color quiz
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Quiz/meme stolen from [livejournal.com profile] evilizasevildoz, who I'm...not actually friends with. ^^;

What American accent do you have?
Your Result: The West

Your accent is the lowest common denominator of American speech. Unless you're a SoCal surfer, no one thinks you have an accent. And really, you may not even be from the West at all, you could easily be from Florida or one of those big Southern cities like Dallas or Atlanta.

The Midland
Boston
North Central
The Inland North
Philadelphia
The South
The Northeast
What American accent do you have?
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My brother picked up some new music without me realizing it. Which makes sense, given that my iPod is the family room desktop pre-camp, and his music is now all on his laptop. But I managed to transfer some of it to my computer before we left, and there's a whole CD from something called Azure Ray--and it's really good. So check them out.

I also got a bunch of new music. Because I had $16-some left from last year, so I got:
-a Carmina Burana CD because that was one of the coolest singing experiences I've ever had;
-"Rhapsody in Blue" because I love it but for some reason don't have it;
-"Breath (2AM)" by Anna Nalick because I heard it a couple of times over the summer and thus associate it with camp and Jade and I had a moment singing it in the van that last weekend sometime;
-"Breath" by Melissa Etheridge because the previous song made me think of it and I'd heard it on Liz's computer sometime last year and I really like the song;
-"Los Angeles" by SUGARCULT because it was the free download this week and they always make me think of Elli;
-"Sonido Total" by The Pinker Tones because I saw it on LOGO;
-"Lolita" by Elefant because I saw it on LOGO.

Then I loaded the iTunes card that I got from my Secret Buddy AKA Trin and so far I have obtained:
-the video of "Is It Any Wonder?" by Keane because I saw it on LOGO and liked the video too enough to not just get the song;
-the video of "Unwritten" by Natasha Bedingfield because I saw it on LOGO and like the song much better with the video--it also reminds me of camp;
-"Neighborhood #1 (Tunnels)" by Arcade Fire because I saw it on LOGO;
-"Rooftops (A Liberation Broadcast)" by Lostprophets because I saw it on LOGO;
-"Cash Machine" by Hard-FI because I saw it on LOGO.

Good stuff. I'm making my way through Tess--although, technically, not, because I'm updating Livejournal instead, silly me.

I took The Purity Test again because Trin was taking it and then Jade was confused so I linked her and she was taking it, and I got a 72.60 this time. Last time I got a 74.45. So, *cough*, apparently, between Before Camp and After Camp I went down 1.85 points, which translates to 37 new 'yes'es. And I believe the time I took it before that was definitely pre-Pride and judging by the score (which I apparently remember as a 79.something) also pre-Liz&Kaitlyn--wow, that's a hundred new 'yes'es between Lindsay and Pride. Can that be right?

Wanna see something fun? Go here and search for "Migel"--the one without a period after it and the 2002 date is the first time I took it. xD So I guess I had a 92.30 the first time.

I'm also amused by the fact that I was able to check off all but about 7 boxes on the female section.

There was something else I was going to say that I vaguely suspect was related to the Test or at least the Test made me think of it but now I'm not sure what it was.

I got an Ultimate magazine in the mail today. I have no idea why.

I need to go to the bookstore. Really, I don't need to, I just want to poke around. Maybe I should do some work instead. Yeah, I think that's the right answer.

The new Facebook is...disturbing. But already I'm getting used to knowing what new groups my friends have joined and who's now friends with whom without having to put any work into it. It's nice coding, but just no.

I added a million pictures from high school to iPhoto. Guess who most of them are of. But it's getting easier--I think I'm really getting over some things. And I found my Baba O'Reilly dating video! Totally worth it. I'm so psyched I still have that.

Anyway, signing off for the night. Later kids.

Purity

Jun. 22nd, 2006 12:53 pm
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supafurryanimals: night<3
supafurryanimals: slut.
supafurryanimals: lol
KeeCollie: god.
KeeCollie: prude.
supafurryanimals: xD!

She got an 84.25, I got a 74.45.

The first time I took it, sophomore year (thanks to [livejournal.com profile] novawolf, [livejournal.com profile] nimue9, [livejournal.com profile] veganstastebest, [livejournal.com profile] mialamu, [livejournal.com profile] kamili, and [livejournal.com profile] epilo) I had a 94.something. On my birthday that year I had a 92.something. Then I went down to somewhere in the 80s. I think the last time I took it, which was possibly earlier this year I was a 79.something.

I remember sitting in on [livejournal.com profile] etherealagent's first time. A 98.25, I think. I was amused.

My score didn't really go down that much even given new developments because I'm still an alcohol, drug, and Rocky virgin, and I haven't had sex in any creative locations, which are sizable portions of the test.

Our internet was out this morning. Mom called Comcast and was like "help!" Then we realized that she'd unplugged the router to plug in her laptop.

Today I will mostly be getting ready for camp but I'll stop by.

P.S. An account of the bits of the weekend I left out of LJ will soon be available upon request to participants, 'cause Chole asked me to write it and Chole's awesome. ;P
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Speaking of uncensored, I should take The Purity Test again in light of recent events.
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According to HumanMetrics.com, I'm still an INFP.

Your Type is
INFP
Introverted Intuitive Feeling Perceiving
Strength of the preferences %
78 12 50 22


Descriptions of INFP proveded here and here.

Interesting. I guess people don't change that much. Although I know I still have my numbers from the first time lying around, I should check the percentages.

There's another site I'm checking out for it, I'll post those results when I finish it.

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Interesting. The result I got from TeamTechnology was INFJ, but I looking at their numbers and technique (which is somewhat different from the traditional Myers-Briggs), I was equally well-matched with INFP as INFJ for my highest results.

ISTJ ISFJ INFJ INTJ
203 248 347 302
ISTP ISFP INFP INTP
203 302 347 248
ESTP ESFP ENFP ENTP
143 188 287 242
ESTJ ESFJ ENFJ ENTJ
143 242 287 188


For advanced users only: the preference scores you achieved for each of the Jungian function-attitudes are in the table below.

Fe Fi Ne Ni Se Si Te Ti
19 25 19 25 10 16 10 16


Descriptions of INFP and INFJ.

I also think it's amusing that one of their career recommendations for INFP is teacher.

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So it seems I'm still an INFP. Does that make sense for me to anyone bored enough to read the descriptions?

Y'all should really do one or both of these, because it's really interesting.
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From [livejournal.com profile] piper_lee


My Personal Dna Report
- Read mine, "Psych me", do yours, then let me "psych you."

It's ten of four and guess what I'm doing? Taking quizzes of course. But I'm really quite intrigued by this one.

I'm amused that I'm more confident than 92% of the people who took this thing.

I'm also more feminine than 92$ but only more masculine than 8%. Thoughts?

And their gender slots are Female, Male, and Other. Thank you. Although, since they have those sliders in the quiz, maybe they should have one for gender. :P

I think I need to take my Meyers-Briggs again. I'm curious.

Quiz?

Jun. 1st, 2006 10:17 pm
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Stolen from [livejournal.com profile] hypomanicpoet

Taken as a female:
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||||| 43%
Stability |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Orderliness |||||||||| 36%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Interdependence |||||||||||| 50%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Mystical |||||||||||||||||| 76%
Artistic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Religious |||||||||||| 50%
Hedonism || 10%
Materialism |||||| 23%
Narcissism |||||||||| 36%
Adventurousness |||||||||| 36%
Work ethic |||||| 23%
Self absorbed |||||| 23%
Conflict seeking |||||| 30%
Need to dominate |||||| 30%
Romantic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Avoidant || 10%
Anti-authority |||||| 30%
Wealth |||||||||||||| 56%
Dependency |||||||||||||||| 63%
Change averse |||||| 30%
Cautiousness |||||||||| 36%
Individuality |||||||||||||| 56%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 50%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||| 57%
Histrionic |||||| 30%
Paranoia |||||| 23%
Vanity |||||||||| 36%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||| 36%
Female cliche |||| 16%
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Taken as a male:
Advanced Global Personality Test Results
Extraversion |||||||||| 36%
Stability |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Orderliness |||||||||||| 46%
Accommodation |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Interdependence |||||||||||||||| 63%
Intellectual |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Mystical |||||||||||||||| 70%
Artistic |||||||||||||||| 70%
Religious |||||||||||||| 56%
Hedonism || 10%
Materialism |||| 16%
Narcissism |||||||||| 36%
Adventurousness |||||| 23%
Work ethic |||||| 30%
Self absorbed |||| 16%
Conflict seeking |||| 16%
Need to dominate |||||| 23%
Romantic |||||||||||||||| 63%
Avoidant || 10%
Anti-authority |||||| 30%
Wealth |||||||||||| 50%
Dependency |||||||||||||||| 63%
Change averse |||||||||||| 43%
Cautiousness |||||| 23%
Individuality |||||||||||| 50%
Sexuality |||||||||||||||||||| 83%
Peter pan complex |||||||||||| 43%
Physical security |||||||||||||||||||| 90%
Physical Fitness |||||||||||||| 57%
Histrionic |||||| 30%
Paranoia |||| 16%
Vanity |||||| 30%
Hypersensitivity |||||||||| 36%
Female cliche |||| 16%
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Stability results were very high which suggests you are extremely relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, hard working, and reliable while still remaining flexible, efficient, and fun.

Extraversion results were moderately low which suggests you are reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

Trait snapshot:
introverted, secretive, reclusive, tough, non social, observer, fearless, solitary, libertarian, detached, does not like to lead, outsider, abides the rules, mind over heart, good at saving money, does not like to stand out, does not make friends easily, self sufficient, not aggressive, likes the unknown, unconcerned with external opinion, strong, abstract, independent, very intellectual, analytical, high self control

Interesting. What the hell is a Peter Pan complex? Unfortunately I didn't realize it wouldn't paste the stability/orderliness/extraversion and trait snapshot before I closed my female results, so I'll take it again.
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Your Extroversion Profile:
Cheerfulness: High
Friendliness: High
Sociability: Medium
Excitement Seeking: Low
Activity Level: Very Low
Assertiveness: Very Low

Lol. So I'm a lazy, quiet, optimistic cuddle-whore. That really sums it all up, actually.


You Are The Star

You represent the ultimate in truth and purity.
Insightful and illuminating, you provide guidance for others.
You also demonstrate unselfish, unconditional love.
You posses many spiritual gifts, including the ability to heal.

Your fortune:

Your future is looking brighter by the day.
The near future will be a time of both hope and healing.
Luck is about to come your way, perhaps the best luck you have ever seen.
Life is about to get a lot easier and much better!

Yeah, so this one only had you put in your name. *eyeroll* Got the same one for long and short, think it's only doing the major arcana, and when was the last time I was insightful and illuminating?


You Are The Devil

You don't represent evil, but you do represent the animalistic side of humans.
You demonstrate what happens when we listen to our first instincts.
At times you tend to be materialistic and hedonistic, giving in to temptation.
Admit it, you're guilty of acting first - and forgetting to think later!

Your fortune:

Right now, you may be having a difficult time as a result of choices you have made.
You need to think about what's important in your life, and discover what chains you down.
It is the time to acknowledge your faults and take steps to overcome them.
It's also the time to let go of any fears or inhibitions that are holding you back.

Lol! Dumblemop is the Devil. FACEBOOK IS THE DEVIL TOO!

Alright, alright, work now. Especially because Gmail is being mean. IT/gender thing first, then finish gender analysis. Wish me luck.

Linky:
Cool stuff! (free program substitutes)
Neat Sudoku thing (easy but pretty)

Lol.

May. 2nd, 2006 06:23 pm
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Tri-Lamb Material
56 % Nerd, 47% Geek, 60% Dork
For The Record:



A Nerd is someone who is passionate about learning/being smart/academia.

A Geek is someone who is passionate about some particular area or subject, often an obscure or difficult one.

A Dork is someone who has difficulty with common social expectations/interactions.



You scored better than half in Nerd and Dork, earning you the coveted title of: Tri-Lamb Material.



The classic, "80's" nerd, you are what most people think of when they
think "nerd," largely due to 80's movies like Revenge of the Nerds and
TV shows like Head of the Class. You're exceptionally bright and smart,
and partly because of that have never quite fit in with your peers or
social groups. Perhaps you've realized, or will someday, that it is
possible to retain all of the things that you like about being
brilliant and still make peace with the social cliques around you. Or
maybe you won't--it's really not necessary. As the brothers of Lambda
Lambda Lambda discovered, you're fine just the way you are and can take
pride in that. I mean, who wants to be like Ogre, right!?



Congratulations!





Thanks Again! -- THE NERD? GEEK? OR DORK? TEST



My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 65% on nerdiness
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 75% on geekosity
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 93% on dork points
Link: The Nerd? Geek? or Dork? Test written by donathos on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Lol. That's all I have to say. Higher than 93% on dorkiness? Lol. Haven't seen a percentile like that since my standardized testing days.
dumblemop: (grip)
I was late to my advising meeting so I have to go at 2 tomorrow instead. Oh well.

To kill time because I don't feel like getting started on actual work just yet, I'm going to do the iPod shuffle lyrics thang again ).

I've got "class" at 11 which I may or may not stay for depending on how I did on my quiz/homework. Then I'll eat something and go to my next class. Then I will write my paper for at least two hours, see Liz for food when she gets off work, and then sleep. If I'm not done with my paper in those 2+ hours, I'll wake up again in the evening and do more work.

John apparently got the same graduation present I did, part of it anyway--money for a trip to Europe. He wants to go to Italy with Evelyn, but there's something going on with that? So it'll either be my brother and his girlfriend traipsing around Italy, or my brother stalking Italians. So what am I going to do with my money? I have no idea. We went to France with Bridget and it was great but she'd been my best friend for four years and we were what, twelve? I don't know if I have any friends now that I can just be like "hey...let's go to Europe" and we'd go and it would be great. I don't even remember what the arrangement was supposed to be...it was something like airfare for me and the other person and expenses for me, but the other person would have to pay the rest of theirs. So it's not like I can just pick someone out of a hat. I could always go somewhere in the US that I haven't been.

I don't know. My parents are just getting on me to use the money now that John will be using his, and I don't like that kind of pressure. I don't get enough sleep to think about this right now. And, of course, whenever I come up with ideas I'm still expecting that slap in the face. Did you see me cringe?

I could go visit Alex. That would actually be fucking awesome. But again, who would I take? It's not like my French is worth anything anymore, so England is kinda the most practical. But how are my parents going to take "I'm going to mosey over to England now to hang out with Alex and his piratical mates, and Nathan and Sophie. No, I've never met them in person, but--" Yeeeah, that's about how far that would get.

Anyway. I've slacked enough, I have class, and it looks like there'll be a class in here at 11 as well so I'd better get going. I'll think. If anyone has any suggestions or any burning desires to go somewhere (Pipe, Wyoming? lol.), I'll consider it.

P.S. Happy Beltane! I forgot until the teacher of the class that is in here now started talking about May Day traditions. ...I should probably go.

nurr

Apr. 30th, 2006 06:12 pm
dumblemop: (angry)
TYPE J
You scored 62 imagination, 41 confidence, 41 dominance, and 62 generosity!

You are a KINKY, SHY, SUBMISSIVE lover who prefers to GIVE. This means
that:

You like relatively kinky sex, and you have the great imagination that
will always keep your partner guessing and excited! There's no getting
bored with you around, you could never settle for dull sex, you want
something fun and new all the time. You aren't afraid to try out
anything you hear about. You might just be an intelligent lover who
needs to be mentally engaged, or perhaps you have some dirty dark
secret kinky desires, but either way, you're never boring.

You can be a
little shy in bed, so maybe this means that you'd prefer to have sex in
the dark, or maybe just that you have all sorts of naughty ideas
bubbling under the surface but can't quite work up the confidence to
speak about most of them. Sometimes it takes you a while to speak up
about what you like, and you aren't very confident in your talents but
I bet your lovers would say otherwise, I'm sure your sweet nature is
far more welcome than egotistical boasting.

You tend to be submissive
in bed, so you prefer to go along with what your lover likes rather
than your own plans. You might like being ordered around and acting out
a slave/master fantasy, or perhaps you just get turned on by being
helpless and unable to move. Or maybe it's as simple as you lacking
courage so prefering firm instructions in bed to make sure you are
doing things right. Either way, you won't be dominating your lover
anytime soon, and might prefer the missionary position to any others.

You prefer to give than recieve. This makes you a very unselfish lover,
devoted to the needs of your partner rather than your own. You get your
pleasure from seeing them get theirs, you are a model sex partner. I'm
sure plenty of people would love to have someone like you in bed with
them! Remember though that if your partner gets pleasure from returning
the favour it's okay to let them, they might love giving as much as you
do!

WE SUGGEST YOU TRY:
Fun and games! Try out those sex games for a lively evening, wether it
be spinning that bottle, playing naked twister, or strip poker, we know
you have the imagination and the sense of fun that will make these
games a great time, and will mean you get to give your lover a wild
time! Playing games will help you feel less shy and will give you
plenty of instruction so you dare to do what you might not have before.



My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 37% on imagination
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 19% on confidence
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 33% on dominance
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 37% on generosity
Link: The What's your sexual style? Test written by lu-mina on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

Interesting. Although I find it ironic that I definitely said "would rather have sex with the lights on" and the write-up says off. And I love kinky sex but may prefer the missionary position the best? Stupid test is heterocentrist anyway.

After a tiny bit of thought, I may only like the idea of straight sex. I may never understand myself, but that's less of a problem every day.

I was being less than honest with myself earlier...the real reason I was reluctant to add Jillian was because she always checked J's LJ when we were at school. And I realized today that the person I knew probably doesn't exist anymore, and I said "fuck it" to the internet stalking a couple of entries back, so the hell with that.

Update on the weekend and further musing later, I'm supposed to be programming.

Here's a link:
ASCII-O-Matic
And the related Rasterbator

P.S. I just figured out that I was making a STUPID mistake and that's why my program wasn't running properly. It wasn't anything to do with *s and &s at all!
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I admit it. I'm stalking Liz's journals again. I'm getting one of my loneliness bouts. Various corners and edges are making significant dents in my palms and feet. I told you that I think of these things at the most inappropriate times. It can't get more inappropriate than this. I'm sorry.

I am a seatbelt!
Find your own pose!


No idea what that means.

DisorderYour Score
Major Depression:Very Slight
Dysthymia:Slight
Bipolar Disorder:Moderate
Cyclothymia:Very High
Seasonal Affective Disorder:Slight-Moderate
Postpartum Depression:N/A
Take the Depression Test

Lovely.

I'm such a girl. I'm sitting here with a pint of ice cream and a basket of chocolate. I don't even think I can eat the whole thing, I just wanted some ice cream and I have flex to burn. I should've gotten something non-chocolate. It's easier to eat more of strawberry or something fruity like that than chocolate for some reason. I think I would kill for one of those strawberry fruit sorbet bars on a stick.

I watched "40-year-old Virgin" with Justin, Alison, Josh, Eric, and sort of Lauren, because I knew I wasn't going to do any work anyway so I might as well spend the time staring at a screen with people instead of staring at a screen alone. It was pretty bad but I laughed anyway, just to have something to laugh at.

It's funny, I write all these angsty entries and my comments just plummet.

I spent a good hour today hunting for poly and pan LJ communities. I'm not really sure why. It's funny, reading stories from poly people's lives, it seems like everyone does it differently than we do. I don't even know where I picked up on the idea. I think it might have been the same website as where I picked up on furry culture. But I stumbled across furry because I was researching polyamory--but where did I come up with polyamory before that?

It's strange how these things just sort of creep into your life. I had no idea what I was getting into that night. I was just not shielding at all, and Liz just stepped up--and by some unexplained phenomenon, felt similarly. And had a girlfriend who wasn't averse to it. And then suddenly we were us. Am I unjustified in thinking of it that way? I don't want to end up with some undeserved sense of belonging if that's not actually the case. This is just how I feel, and I'm in a disclosure-because-I-have-nothing-else-to-do mood. There's just...there's just nothing better than coming up behind Liz in the dark and having her turn around and say "Baby!" with that look on her face, or waking up wrapped around Kaitlyn. I feel like you're both my alpha, if that makes sense. It kind of has to be that way, given that you're each other's alpha, but I think it just is that way.

I think I'm being mean to Matt. I wore my gay agenda shirt today and ran into him in the Commons at lunch and tried to get him to do Day of Silence again. He still won't do it. He wants to hang out this weekend. I really don't know if I'll be in the mood.

I need cuddling. It took a lot of willpower not to ask to watch the movie draped on Justin, because he was the one sitting with me on the couch. I don't like to make people uncomfortable for no reason, and CWIT is not a cuddly crowd. And it wouldn't have felt right. I need my Liz and my Kaitlyn. Not that I feel like I'm not allowed to cuddle with anyone else, it just...I don't need just cuddling, I need them, and they're not here, so I have this vacuum that I shouldn't just fill.

I'm pretty sure Lindsay was polyamorous at heart, she just didn't want to admit it. Judging by the number of guys that went through my head, I'd say that's a yes. She also didn't want anyone else around her to be the same way--it was all about her. She always told me I'd find a Rosie after she went off to the Undying Lands. Single-handedly almost ruined Tolkien for me now.

Whatever. I'm just saying things to have something to say, because the truth is that I should not be feeling the way I'm feeling right now. Not the time. But there it is. I'm eating to have something in my mouth, and I keep rubbing my hands on the edges of the desk.

I miss my girls.

I feel like everything is so fluid now. Change is by and large good, and growth, and all that, but I don't take the blatant disruption of what schedule I have very well. I'll ditch anything to spend time with Liz, but I have my little patterns. I guess this is just one of those things that I need to learn that I can't base my functioning around her. Did it have to be because of something like this?

Don't let me forget that tomorrow is Day of Silence, because I'll forget and wear yellow or something.

I've got to go to bed. If I'm not going to work, I cannot stay up any later than this and hope to function tomorrow because tomorrow I absolutely must work. If you see me not working, smack me. They're going to be drained and Liz is still going to have to call her show. I can't be all pansy and angst and insomnia. I'm not good at being strong. I'll get spiders, I'll clean up broken objects, I'll fix computers, I'll lift boxes...these head and heart things are not my strong point. Especially with people I care so strongly about. My brother is the exception, I guess, because I've known him for seventeen years.

I'm not used to being an adult. I always expect my parents to tell me what I can and can't do. It's weird when I actually come up with something and they think it's a great idea. I don't even know what that has to do with anything. Nothing, it has nothing to do with anything. My mind just won't turn off. It's the new moon in two days.

Alright. I need to go to bed. J'espère que vous êtes bien. Je vous aime.
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Your IQ Is 130

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Genius

Your General Knowledge is Above Average


Also, I really like skirts like this. It's wide and sort of pleated, and it comes to just below my knees. So I can spread my legs as wide as I want and not be indecent.

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I Am A: Lawful Good Elf Bard Ranger


Alignment:
Lawful Good characters are the epitome of all that is just and good. They believe in order and governments that work for the benefit of all, and generally do not mind doing direct work to further their beliefs.


Race:
Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.


Primary Class:
Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.


Secondary Class:
Rangers are the defenders of nature and the elements. They are in tune with the Earth, and work to keep it safe and healthy.


Deity:
Oghma is the Neutral Good god of knowledge and invention. He is also known as the Binder of What is Known, and is the Patron of Bards. His followers believe that knowledge reigns supreme, and is the basis for everything else that is done. They wear white shirts and pants, with a black and gold braided vest, and a small, box-like hat. All priests of Oghma are known as Loremasters. Oghma's symbol is a scroll.


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Detailed Results:

Alignment:
Lawful Good ----- XXXXXXX (7)
Neutral Good ---- XXXXXX (6)
Chaotic Good ---- XXXXX (5)
Lawful Neutral -- XXXXXX (6)
True Neutral ---- X (1)
Chaotic Neutral - XXX (3)
Lawful Evil ----- X (1)
Neutral Evil ---- (-3)
Chaotic Evil ---- (-2)

Race:
Human ---- (-3)
Half-Elf - XXXXXXXX (8)
Elf ------ XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX (17)
Halfling - (-1)
Dwarf ---- X (1)
Half-Orc - (-6)
Gnome ---- XXXXXXXX (8)

Class:
Fighter - (-9)
Ranger -- XXXXXX (6)
Paladin - (-2)
Cleric -- XX (2)
Mage ---- (0)
Druid --- XXXXXX (6)
Thief --- X (1)
Bard ---- XXXXXXXX (8)
Monk ---- (-2)

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