|You Would Be a Pet Dog|
You're friendly, loyal, and an all around good sport. People love to be near you.
You are very open with your feelings, and you're quite vocal in expressing them.
You are sincere and kind. You love many people - without any sort of agenda.
Why you would make a great pet: You're content to chill out with your friends
Why you would make a bad pet: You always find yourself getting into trouble
What you would love about being a dog: Running around and playing
What you would hate about being a dog: Being left home alone while everyone else is out having fun
|Your Love is Represented by a Purple Rose|
For you, love is all about chemistry and attraction. You totally believe in love at first sight.
If a relationship is right, you know it from the start.
You're often sure of your feelings. And you're not afraid to express them.
|You Are a Mermaid|
You are a total daydreamer, and people tend to think you're flakier than you actually are.
While your head is often in the clouds, you'll always come back to earth to help someone in need.
Beyond being a caring person, you are also very intelligent and rational.
You understand the connections of the universe better than almost anyone else.
Your Score: Neutral-Good
76% Good, 48% Chaotic
Plane of Existence: Elysium, "Blessed Fields". Description: The plane of peace. Notable Inhabitants: Guardinals - noble immortal humanoids with bestial features.
Examples of Neutral-Goods (Ethically Neutral, Morally Good)
Cloud Strife (FFVII)
Sidhartha Gautama (the Buddha)
Bilbo & Frodo Baggins
The Dali Lama
Ben (O-Bi-Wan) Kenobi
Often goes along with the laws and desires of the group as being the easiest course of action, but ethical considerations clearly have top priority. May pursue quite abstract goals. Often aloof and difficult to understand.
Will keep their word to others of good alignment
Would not attack an unarmed foe
Will not use poison
Will help those in need
May work with others
Indifferent to higher authority
Indifferent to organizations
Neutral Good "Pure Good"
A neutral good [person] will obey the law, or break it when he or she sees it will serve a greater good. He or she is not bound strongly to a social system or order. His or her need to help others and reduce their suffering may take precedence over all else. Neutral good [people] do good for goodness' sake, not because they are directed to by law or by whim.
This alignment desires good without bias for or against order.
Other Alignments and Tendencies (Tendenices are what you would more often sway towards; esp. for Neutrals):
0-39% Good, 0-39% Chaotic: Lawful-Evil
0-39% Good, 40-60% Chaotic: Neutral-Evil
0-39% Good, 61-100% Chaotic: Chaotic-Evil
40-60% Good, 0-39% Chaotic: Lawful-Neutral
40-60% Good, 40-60% Chaotic: True Neutral
40-60% Good, 61-100% Chaotic: Chaotic-Neutral
61-100% Good, 0-39% Chaotic: Lawful-Good
61-100% Good, 61-100% Chaotic: Chaotic-Good
|Link: The Alignment Test written by xan81 on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test|
Last night, I think the concept of having kids really hit home for the first time.
Up until about last year, I never wanted them. Before the trans thing came on the scene, I didn't really see myself as a parent. No adolescent girl maternity dreams. When I played House, I was the dog. Then I realized I was trans and and was SO not about the whole birth thing--which wouldn't rule out adoption, as I don't place an emphasis on "having your own kid" over adopting (an adopted child IS your kid--if they're not, why are you a parent?), but still just...didn't want kids.
When I was trying to work out what kind of a transition I wanted, not wanting kids was a factor. I would usually come to the conclusion that I wanted to go up to but not including genital surgery--i.e., hormones, chest surgery, and hysterectomy. Ian would caution me, "Sure you don't want kids now but what if your biological clock turns on?" and "What if you have kids? You wouldn't be able to breastfeed them." My response to that was that if I was making concerted efforts to quell the effects of female hormones on my system, it would be unlikely that an urge to bear children would strike me. If I really did end up wanting kids, I would adopt. Why would I let a supposed biological imperative trump the needs of kids without a home?
But it wasn't a real thing. It was very definitely an if, and a tiered one at that. If I transitioned, and then if I really really wanted kids, I could adopt.
Something Liz said after we broke up: "Besides, can you really see yourself raising a kid with me and Kaitlyn?" And I acknowledged the probable truth of this.
I spent last summer at camp for several reasons. I loved camp as a child and was forcibly distanced from it in high school. I needed a job. I was thinking I might want to teach, and wanted to see whether I could handle even being a counselor. I ended up loving being a counselor, and I think I was a pretty good one. But there is a huge difference between taking care of a child for a week and being its parent. And the Brownie camps (the youngest girls we had) were always my last choice and I had my best weeks working with the CIT/WITs (the oldest girls we had).
Last night, as my plane flew over some unknown Milwaukee suburb, the thought came into my head, "I want a house. I want my kids to be able to play outside. I want a dog. I want woods. ...wait, back up--what?"
I wonder where it came from.
Couldn't find 'em but... They're playing at the 8x10 on Friday.
Watching some of their videos. I like and kinda want to see them now. I also need to not buy their current album (the one with "Ah Mary" on it doesn't come out until August although the song is out on a single) because I already decided I was going to get The Crane Wife from the Decemberists with my gift card from my godmother and I don't have enough iTunes credit to get both.
There is a very good reason iTunes is not linked to my bank account.
My laptop battery is busted. I installed the battery update from Apple yesterday, and now the computer won't run unless it's plugged into power.
According to this, I may be able to get the battery replaced free. My maximum charge is like 66% of what it should be and my cycle count is way under 300. I just have to take it to the Apple store and see what they can do for me. I tried this and it didn't seem to work.
I thought something was just wrong with Adium, because this morning it crashed every time I opened an IM window. So I switched to iChat, I'd figure out what was wrong with Adium later...and then when I got to the commuter lounge, should've had a full battery, my computer had been in sleep before I left--and it was off, and wouldn't turn in without the power cord. Unplugging the power cord while the computer is on results in immediate shut down.
People in tech support make me nervous. Because I know there are plenty of people out there who really have no idea what they're doing (and can't handle it--there are also plenty of people who don't really know what they're doing and manage just fine), and I know these people are the tech support employee's nightmare customers. I do know what I'm doing usually, but I haven't had a Mac for all that long and I have a serious problem with adequately expressing my problems, whether I know what they are or not. I don't want to make some tech person's life harder because I'm having issues and don't know how to express myself.
I just discovered Automator last night, in addition to ordering my computer around. As a side note: it really needs a name now (and possibly a gender). I can't just keep calling it Computer now that I'm actually talking to it. Comment suggestions. Trin said it should be a girl because I have a security cable for it to tie it to chairs and beds and things, but I'm open to other possibilities. Macbook Pro running Tiger, nothing on the case, speaks with the Vicki voice for now.
Automator is a drag-and-drop programming utility for automating repetitive tasks. Last night, I wrote a workflow for installing downloaded fonts.
1. Download .zip files to My Stuff > ... > Fonts > New
2. Say, "Computer: run install fonts."
3. Click play or press Apple+R
1. Find files with extension .zip in New
2. Open them
3. Pause for 1 second so later steps recognize the unzipped folders
4. Find files with extension .ttf in New
5. Add fonts to Font library
6. Find files with extension .zip in New
7. Move them to Fonts > Installed
8. Get New
9. Move it to Trash
10. Make new New folder in Fonts
Tada! Any number of fonts correctly installed, their .zip files moved to a folder where I can keep track of ones I already have, their no-longer-needed read-mes and .ttf components deleted, and a pristine folder to download more to.
This used to take me a million years, and now it takes about 4-7 seconds depending on how many fonts there are.
The most time-consuming part of creating it was just figuring out what Actions did what and how they interacted so I could come up with a meaningful and effective sequence.
Which is brilliant design--the client doesn't need to know HOW it happens, they just need to know pre- and post- conditions and side-effects in order to do their part.
So basically macros, except I can put off learning VB. I will eventually. AppleScript too, as long as I've got the Mac I may as well attempt to use it to its full potential.
I shouldn't have been that neurotic. I was with people all day except for the 2.5 hours between CMD and the concert. I just feel...disconnected, even though I kinda made "new" friends today. I say "new" because they live on the floor and I see them all the time, but I never really knew their names and I talked to them a bit today and it seemed to go well.
I don't know. I guess school and everything is just burning me out. Kicks in the ass just give me a headache instead of spurring me to better behavior. I don't know how relaxing summer will really be though, and despite my flaws, I really don't want to be in permanent loser mode.
Talking with Trin and Johanna and Liz has helped me get some perspective on the whole study abroad/Freedom president thang. Still no answers, but a better outlook I think.
I have more problems though. Namely, I'm supposed to take the placement test for Japanese on Friday, but I'll have to miss our last choir rehearsal before our concert on Saturday. And I just learned today that it will be a double rehearsal because we didn't have it last Friday. And judging by today's rehearsal, I'm not as prepared as I need to be. But there's no other time I can take the placement test, because I need a ride from Mark that day. There is one on Wednesday that I could try to switch to, but I will barely be prepared for it on Friday and I don't think I will be able to get a ride. There's one in August but if I wait until then there may not be room left in the class and I don't know if I'll be in the area then. So I'm kinda screwed.
I also want to be in the drag show, and I wanted Trin to do it with me because I need a partner, but we have had and will have no chance to practice together. I still want to do it. Hopefully Ulrich can help me out, since we have to practice for his act anyway. And that way we'll both get to do it boi and en femme.
I'm really just overwhelmed and I feel like whenever I get two steps ahead I take a step and a stumble back.
But as a teaser, here is my daemon (depending on whether I'm male or female) according to the promo website.
Actually, no. They're only letting me have one daemon even if I use different email addresses and I'm too lazy to rig it so I can have too. So you just get one for now. It's not like it's a different animal, it's just a slightly different description, which I found interesting.
I don't know if I know anyone else I've seen well enough to change their daemon.
Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.
Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working.
Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.
ON TRANSGENDER RIGHTS
April 24, 2007
Chemistry Building, Lecture Hall 2
One of the top 2007 legislative priorities for LGBTQ rights organizations in Maryland was adding protection for transgender Marylanders in the state's anti-discrimination laws. Despite majority support in both the House and Senate the legislation was defeated by one vote in committee.
Join us to discuss what happened in Annapolis and where we go from here. We will be joined by the bill's sponsors, Delegate Adrienne Jones and Senator Lisa Gladden. Our special guest is Julie Nemecek, the Michigan college professor who was recently fired when she came out as transgender. Additional speakers are Steve Glassman, Chairman of the Pennsylvania Human Relations Commission, and David Noble, Political Director, National Gay and Lesbian Task Force.
Refreshment and light snacks will be provided. ASL interpreter is available on request; please contact 301-587-7500. Parking is available on campus. Sponsored by UMBC Gender and Women's Studies Program.
(x-posted to anywhere I think is likely to care.)
I don't have time to do anything unless I'm not doing something else. Juggling my life is becoming a nightmare it never was when sacrificing my homework was the obvious choice. I need a Liz-schedule (but then my problem would become actually sticking to it.)
Also, if I ever manage to post in here again, I'm going to begin filtering my journal. I need to write my life down more in order to keep it in order, and I'm not entirely comfortable anymore with leaving it wide open. I may simply set every entry as Friends-only (or only leave public entries that won't identify me or get me in trouble with people who might potentially be in future professional relationships with me) or I may set up group-specific filters depending on what watchers want and/or need to see like I've seen other people do.
Rest assured that I care about you all even as I rush around like an ant heap targeted by a kid with a magnifying glass.